Saturday, April 12, 2014

Forced Unconcern

That's how I'm feeling.  That I'm pretty much forcing myself to assume all is well, and that all will be well until the u/s on May 2nd. It's not like I have much if any control over anything to do with the process.  That's not to say I don't do irregular checks on the girls to see if they are still reactive, or notice that I'm seriously belly bloated by the end of the day.  And I've already had my first crazy pregnancy dream in which I was trying to nurse one of our cats...WTH!?

I did not end up calling the RE's office. I specifically picked my OB/GYN because she does specialize in high-risk pregnancy, and there are a number of doctors in the group, so we'll just roll with that.

When DH and I talk about the possibilities, it's in terms of the practicalities - what kinds of baby things we'll need to get (not much since I've been pathological about keeping all of LO's things and most of the equipment is on the gender neutral side; obviously a boy would mean a 98% new wardrobe, and the majority of my maternity wear was geared toward warmer weather so I'll need to bulk that up for the fall/early winter), any projects we think might need to be completed around the house, the room we'll switch over from guest to nursery, and so forth.

At this point no matter what happens, DH and I are in agreement that this is it: a decision needs to be made and followed through on in regards to permanent birth control. Whether it's him getting snipped (we have not really discussed) or my tubes tied (I refuse to go back on hormonal birth control and have fears that my metal allergy would be triggered by a metal IUD), we will do something.

Keep sending the good vibes our way, please. Still not sure what happened, but maybe we finally relaxed enough? Hah!

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Here I Go Again (edited)

That little pudge under my bellybutton I mentioned at the end of the last post?

It's okay, I'll wait while you go back and refresh your memory.

Done yet?

How about now?

Okay, good...

It may be getting bigger for the next 8 months or so.

We're in shock. Dadblastit, if infertility can't be counted on as birth control, what the heck is it good for?!

One positive test so far*, after AF was supposed to start on April 1 (yes, at first I figured the non-arrival was a sick joke by Mother Nature), OB's office won't do an ultrasound until 8-10 weeks and we're going on a long planned and longer anticipated Caribbean vacation in the next couple of weeks, but will be back before 8 weeks.

So much for the copious alcoholic beverages I was planning to enjoy. And if I remember correctly, it was dead on the start of week 6 with LO when morning sickness hit with a vengeance. Nothing like being on an airplane or at a lovely resort and not being able to enjoy it because everything makes you want to hurl!

And that's assuming that all is going well and there isn't a repeat of last summer's events; nothing like packing for a beach and pool time and having to take up room with an overload of supplies and then if they are needed not feeling comfortable wearing things which expose one's bottom.

Since erasing the knowledge of what could happen isn't exactly possible, I'm working on not getting too excited or worried about it, hoping for the best while anticipating the worst.

But I will be making that OB ultrasound appointment ASAP.  And calling the RE's office to get their input on anything I can do until then to ease my worries!

*I will note that the one test so far had no reluctance in quickly coming up with a nice dark line, unlike last summer when they were light but still visible. So that's giving me some shred of hope. I need to get one of the new-fangled ones which give a positive plus a guesstimate of how many weeks.

EDIT: Did the digital test this morning and it gave a 2-3 week past ovulation time frame, so still assuming all is well. And mentally twiddling my thumbs until Monday when I can make some calls.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

I've Got A Brag

About myself.

I joined a gym (local chain) at the end of October and started going M/W/F mornings after dropping LO off at preschool. Since then I missed a couple of weeks thanks to the holidays, and another thanks to 3/3 of us being sick and not being able to breathe, and a few days here and there thanks to it being the thing which got dropped in favor of doctor appointments or other scheduling issues.

This chain has a "University" program you can sign up for which provides a basic introduction to a circuit of machines, after 4-5 weeks you are introduced to more upper body machines, and after 7-8 weeks more lower body machines, and then you "graduate" - congratulations, here's a t-shirt! So, seeing how it's been years since I'd been in a gym, I did that program, plus cardio on an elliptical. I also made it a priority to attend a LesMills Body Flow class on Friday mornings which includes elements of Tai Chi, Pilates & Yoga and leaves me feeling great.

So, here's the brag - since the beginning of November, I've lost fat and gained muscle to the tune of adding ~5lbs to my weight (grrrr).  But, and I should have done this before I started for comparison, the brag is that I'm down to somewhere 20-22% body fat according to the caliper test a trainer did.

I know it's only been 4 months, but I think that's pretty good to go from barely being able to use any of the machines weighted at more than 10-15 pounds to doing machine squats over my actual weight. 

Now, if I could only get rid of that pesky pudge under my belly-button!  Maybe I should start making healthier food choices...

Wednesday, February 12, 2014


Yeah, it's 11pm EST and I'm writing a blog post about sleep instead of actually, you know, doing that.

I tried using "doing it" at the end of that sentence but my inner teenage boy was laugh-snorting too loudly to ignore, so ... anyway & moving right along.

The thing is we're not getting enough sleep around here.  The problem is two fold - 1. I'm not going to bed at a reasonable hour, mostly because DH is getting home way later than is healthy and I'd like to actually spend time with him, and also I selfishly don't want to change my schedule. 2. LO is awakening most mornings somewhere between 5 and 6 AM.  Mostly leaning toward the earlier side of that range. Even when I've gotten to bed at a reasonable hour I don't function well for the day waking up at that time.  On the other hand, if I go to bed even later and then by some miracle am able to sleep until 7? My day is golden.

Wait, let me give examples for that: (a) Bed at 10pm but woken up at 5:30am - even with 7.5 hours of sleep I am a cranky cranky person until I've had enough caffeine & sugar. (b) Bed at 1am but woken up at 7am - only 6 hours of sleep and I am happy, and have less need for stimulants.

I know I could push back LO's nighttime sleep schedule - she currently goes to sleep anywhere between 7 & 8pm, but on the now rare days she's had a nap it can push back to 9pm (I'm now thankful that naps are rare as I'd rather have the evening hours free to relax than the daytime quiet) - but that won't, to the best of what I've seen from people who've done this for time changes, do much for her waking time (which actually seems to be earlier the later she gets to bed at night). I'm hoping it's a phase and that by age 4, and after the Spring time change, she'll be sleeping later in the morning. Until then, we'll skip trying to snuggle in our bed because she turns into a pointy appendaged octopus whose idea of snuggling is doing everything but laying quietly close to me or DH while we attempt to snag even a few more minutes of precious sleeeeeep.

The other sleep thing which has been going on for a while now is that we're back to her falling asleep in my lap while I'm reading or singing in the rocking chair and then I transfer her to the bed for the night. I love it: it's my favorite part of the day because she's usually not moving or talking but snuggled close while I read, it feels so cozy and connecting and makes up for so many of the stresses between her and I over the course of the day. I'm going to be ultra-sad when she finally decides she's too big for such things. Or she actually gets too big for me to lift and carry safely.

Sleep tight & don't let the bed bugs bite!

Monday, January 27, 2014

Biscuit Queen

It's a self-declared title, so you can be one too if you follow the following recipe...

Easy-Peasy Biscuits
2 cups self-rising flour (national brand is okay, but soft wheat is better*), plus extra for flouring the working surface.
1 cup heavy cream (not 1/2 & 1/2 or any other light version, it has to be the good stuff)
2-3 tablespoons butter, melted**

Preheat oven to 475F.
Mix flour & cream in a large bowl with a wooden spoon until there is very little loose flour remaining.  Turn out onto a lightly floured silicone mat (preferred) or other hard surface. Gently gather up the chunks formed from stirring and pat into an approx 1/2" thick rectangle.  Fold in half & pat down again**, and fold & pat again, and again, and again, and again. You may need to reflour the surface below the dough between folding and patting.The final pat down will help determine how tall your biscuits are, I like to pat down to less than 1/2" since I use a smaller diameter cutter. Cut out as many biscuits as you can & place evenly on a cookie sheet lined with parchment paper. Gently moosh the scraps together, pat down and fold only a couple times. These biscuits will be slightly shorter.

Once you are out of dough, put the biscuits in the oven for 6 minutes. Rotate the cookie sheet so the biscuits in the front are now at the back and bake for another 4 minutes.  While they are cooking, melt the butter so it's ready to spread gently on top of each golden biscuit immediately after they come out of the oven.  Do that.  Let cool slightly and enjoy with honey, ham, or whatever your preferred biscuit topping may be (I'm going to attempt sausage gravy soon with some sausage DH ordered from a fundraising coworker).

These are absolutely not in any way shape or form diet food. But they sure are yummy & on the rare occasions where they are not eaten on the first day they will stay good for at least 3 days on the counter - in a ziplock.


*I bought a bag of Big Spring Mill self-rising flour at the grocery store without knowing anything about it and it has blown me away, the flour is so soft & fine compared to Gold Medal or other large brands I've purchased in the past.
**I've also been known to spread a layer of melted butter on the dough before each fold & pat cycle.  It helps the name brand flour but seems to be unnecessary with the softer local flour.  If you do this, you'll need at least 3 tablespoons of butter if not 4.

Monday, January 6, 2014

Starting 2014 (Can I get a do over?)

Bullet points, mostly because that's the way it feels like things are hitting me today...
  • DH was sick over the weekend...low fever, aches, chills, slight nausea.  Still felt bad enough to stay home today.
  • Dog started limping the end of last week. Over the weekend it got worse and by Sunday evening she wouldn't put weight on the leg and was gimping around on 3. Today's vet diagnosis? Blown ACL. Otherwise in good spirits/health so we're looking at a not insignificant cost to repair that, at least enough so that she can function on 4 legs instead of 3. Whee.
  • This morning decided to wear a pair of shoes I've had for 8-10 years because they are comfy and had soles thick enough to keep my feet out of puddles left by today's rain. Walking through Wal-Mart after the vet visit it felt like something was wrong with the way my foot was fitting in one so I wiggled my foot a bit and went on my way without looking at the shoe.  Then in the parking lot both feet were getting wet, and when I finally looked at the shoes the soles of both had cracked clean through at the balls of my feet & the shoe that had felt funny had chunks out of the heel.  How classy is it to have your shoes fall apart in Wal-Mart?!
  • LO has been flipping between her good and bad selfs with little provocation.  Today she was being good until without any provocation she came up behind me and bit me on the ASS hard enough to leave a good mark even through the denim of my jeans.
Oh, 2014, I had such high hopes for you....

Monday, December 30, 2013

I'm Curious!

I was doing laundry today and while my mind was wandering it settled upon the question of what rules other people follow for wearing clothes more than once. 

For example, I pretty much draw the line at wearing anything but bottoms (such as jeans/shorts/etc.) and bras more than once. Jeans only get 2 wears and, well, embarrassingly enough, bras get worn somewhere between 5-7 times before washing, depending on how warm and sweaty I've gotten.  Also, nightgowns get changed when I change the sheets on our bed, so that varies.

 When I met DH he was wearing polo shirts more than once, without an undershirt. Let me tell you, even if he hung them up between wearings and hadn't sweated in them, his skin oils still left an odor (or developed an odor between wearings).  Pee-eeew!  That habit got broken as soon as I started doing his laundry, thank goodness!  Now he only wears shirts once, and follows the same rules as I do for jeans and nightwear.

What about you, what are your rules for wearing clothes more than once & do all the adults in your household follow them or do they have their own rules?