And the results are in...

(For those who are trying to avoid such things, below is a discussion about our ongoing issues with fertility. Why don't you check in later when I've got a new post up about something more fluffy, OK?)

And it's not what we (I) were (was) hoping for.

The good news is, it's not the worst it could be, which is what DH is holding onto because he was very afraid that he was sterile. So he's happy, or happier, with the results and looking on to the positives of what we can do with what we've got.

I'm the one who fell apart and am still feeling upset about what this means. The preliminary report indicates that I'm probably going to need intrauterine insemination (AKA: artificial insemination). So much for just making love on the magic day and having things happen naturally (which could still be possible, but not probable). Logically I know that the end result is more important than the process, but I have yet to fully accept that in my heart.

There seems to be so much more that can be done to help with the female side of infertility, but basically if the sperm are screwed up then there's not much that can be done as it is usually DNA based. I really was hoping that his results would come back with glowing attributes.

And the real kicker, we can't get an appointment with the Renal Endocrinologist until MAY! So, that really sucks. They've been really kind, but I'm still feeling like the joke's on us: "Guess what? You have issues, but you can't even talk to the doc about your options for 5 months. Deal with it." I've requested to be put on the cancellation list, but there are no guarantees if we will be able to move forward any quicker.

There are still a couple of tests that can be performed on me between now and then, so that we don't waste time later, so that's encouraging, to at least feel like some forward progression can be made along the wait. But for those to be performed, I have to have started the next cycle, so that would kill all hope that this cycle of Clomid (or generic) was successful. Still a couple more days though to determine that, at least based on the timing from the first cycle. I'd love to call the OBGYN's office and say, hey we need to cancel... but I don't think it's going to happen. It would be wonderful to be proven wrong though.

So that's where we are. And now I'm going to cross my fingers, think happy thoughts, and keep on charting my temps. Because if we don't have to do this "special" I really would prefer not to.