What do you suggest? (Edited)

I need your help (again). I know that some of you out there are pregnant, actively trying, or already have kids; or have friends to whom those categories apply.

My cycle has returned in what I would consider a reasonable number of days which gives me hope that this will be an ongoing thing which means that I can unlock that little bit of hope that one day I too will be a mother. I hope that isn't too much information, but one reason I started this blog is to have an outlet besides my husband to express my fears and seek reassurances that my body isn't totally and completely messed up from too many years of Depo-Provera.

Edit: This may have been a false alarm. When I wrote this post I had seen blood, and apparently that was the only amount that came out that day. The following day, the same or a little less came out, and today nothing. What I'm thinking - either this is implantation spotting (we are all entitled to our delusions) or the precursor to the worst period ever. Or it was just my body going ha,ha look what I can do. In the best case scenario I'm guessing I need to wait a few days for hormones to start to circulate before POAS might be anything but negative. What ever it is, the only thing I thing I can do is wait. And that is frustrating. Now, back to the original post.

I have avoided thinking about the possibilty of baby(ies) for years because I am apparently superstitious and believe that thinking about things before I am ready (or the stars are in the perfect alignment) will jinx them.

I also have a horror of being the girl (woman?) who only talks babies, even years before she has a boyfriend or husband or even a sperm donor. I know I'm past that age, but it's really stuck with me how uncomfortable those women made me feel.

So where am I going with this? It appears that in my eagerness to avoid the topic, I have also missed out on what books are helpful in starting to try to conceive. Ones that cover timing, diet, whatever other factors which need to be considered that I don't even know about. And which ones aren't worth my time, even for a giggle.

And that's where you come in. Please point me in the right direction so that I can order them online and someone I know in person won't see me wandering in the pregnancy sections of the local bookstores. Our families know too many people in this area and my DH and I feel that our decision that we are now ready to have children is no one elses business.

Once I get pregnant then we will tell our families and they can start to shower us with clothes and toys and furniture to their hearts content (I'm being serious, I know that I'm not going to have to buy baby/kids clothes for years because my MIL will buy everything above and beyond what we might need, she's just like that and I love her for it).

If for some reason we find out that we will need help to get pregnant, since my mother had trouble conceiving she has offered (one day, out of the blue) to help out with the costs of AI if we need to go that route.

So, what are your suggestions? The good, the bad, and the too funny? I thank you, my husband thanks you, and our yet-to-be-conceived child(ren) thank(s) you.